Last night was so...normal...it was weird. I am not having any strong cravings right now. I am really glad for that. Maybe it helped that I cut back a fair amount in June.
Came home from work to the hubs and 1 kiddie (older kiddie is on vacay with her Grandmother). They were just hanging out dinking around the house. We chatted a while about our day. Talked about making dinner, made dinner, talked about walking the dogs but watched TV instead. I feel pretty tired these days and it was nice to just veg out and watch "American Ninja Warrior" - seriously, that is what we watched (ug) I had to leave when it ended and they were going to watch America's Got Talent. I can only take so much mindless TV. At one point I went in the kitchen and fixed myself a drink. I had lemonade and tonic. When I sat back down on the couch my son asked what I was drinking. It was so nice to be able to tell him and then let him try a sip. No scary "adult drinks" that he had to stay away from. He liked it and decided to go make his own. We hung out and just vegged. I went to bed around 9:30 so I could avoid being tempted to eat or drink. It wasn't the best of all nights, but considering we were out til 10 the night before paddleboarding and having dinner and we will be out boating late tonight, I will take a mindless night of TV.
I have been fighting a low grade headache, fatigue, bloating and occasional dizziness since about Tuesday afternoon. I am sure it is all due to not pumping my body full of alcohol. It's weird, but I kind of feel like it's a good thing. I feel like if my body is reacting then I am forcing a change. It's like working out. If you are sore then you have done something different. Maybe that's what it is. I am sore from saying No!
My hubs and kiddie are leaving Sunday for 4 days. While I will miss them, I am looking forward to some alone time. I haven't really gone in to depth with my hubs about the physical withdrawing so it might be nice to just get through some of it and have my own space to deal with it. Assuming that I continue on this path they will be gone from Sober Day 7 - Sober Day 10. I rarely get any alone time so I am looking forward to watching movies I pick out and having popcorn for dinner!
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