This is that annoying post of me talking about how I don't even want to drink right now. Really, I don't. I find that I have not even been thinking about it or missing it in the evenings. I still worry about how I am going to get through some occasions. The big one that seems to be stuck in my mind is New Years Eve. I think my issue is that I don't really want to share my sobriety right now. It is kind of like a private little secret I have and I just don't want to go in to with other people. Honestly, I feel so damn exhausted all the time that the thought of picking through my brain to discuss my drinking just wears me out even more. I will stop worrying abut New Years Eve now, it doesn't do me any good. I will figure it out as it gets closer.
So...my original thought/point with this post is that I am kind of surprised that I have not been thinking about booze much. It is amazing how different my mind set it is compared to just a few weeks ago. I don't feel like I am white knuckling or just getting by. I can truly see myself not drinking again ever. It doesn't seem so unattainable anymore. Maybe this is the "pink cloud" I have heard about. Well, if it is I will enjoy the ride, but be cautious about feeling to secure in my journey.
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