As far as addictive behavior goes I have replaced alcohol with sugar. I mean it is filling in all the holes left by not drinking. During the day I think about treats I can have. I "treat" myself to a cookie almost every afternoon. I plan a Friday night with a piece of cake and the latest copy of People magazine. It's like an orgy of junk food on Fridays - junk for my mind, junk for my body. I sneak the treats so that my kids don't see them because goodness knows I wouldn't let them eat this way.
So, because I am sober and just slightly more aware of myself these days I have decided to kick the sugar habit. I am eliminating all my "treats". No cake, no candy, no cookies, no tonic-berry lemonade. No treats of this type at all. I have read that sugar is an addiction just like many other addictions, so I am trying to mentally accept that this week (I'm on day 2) is going to suck. It is going to suck like quitting drink sucked. I can tell myself all day long that this is good for me and that my body needs to detox, but it sucks.
I also know that this early in my sobriety I am supposed to just be kind to myself and not try to limit too much stuff. I totally get that, but I am not okay with my behavior in regards to sweets. I do not like the sneaking and hiding and doing something that I know is not good for me. It is this reason that I am making this change. I feel like I have to be vigilant about addictive behavior and I am looking to nip this one in the bud quick!
Oh, and 5 weeks sober as of last Sunday, so that's pretty cool too.
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